Life Changes

Hey everyone

Earlier I wrote to you about my Grandpa. Well, on October 9, one day before his 89th birthday, he passed away. We all felt it was time, however, that doesn't make it any easier.

I was able to go to Ontario for the funeral and see my family. Some of whom I've not seen in over 6 years. Memories of Grandpa filled our conversations as we laughed and cried.

I still don't feel as though I've got my feet back underneath me but one thing is clear, I've changed. It's amazing how one phone call can change your view on life. There were a few times while in Ontario in which I had to "referee" some heated conversations between my aunt and uncle, all the while thinking, "Grow up people Grandpa just died" The petty little arguments that happen, which at one time I would have been in the thick of battle over, now seemed meaningless. I felt as though everyone was missing the big picture.

The truth of the matter was, 1. I was changing, and 2. This was how my family was expressing their grief. I'm finding over the last two weeks that the little things which used to bother me, don't. I don't know if it's that I'm growing or if it's that I just don't care anymore. I know it's my way of grieving, however, the things I care about are defiantly different.

The great news is that Grandpa was a Christian and is in heaven walking with God. I can't help but wonder what his first question to God was? Who met him when he walked through the gates? What does his mansion look like? and, Is it hot enough for him? I ask the last question because every time any of us walked in the front door you could be sure to hear Grandpa yell "Shut the door!".

My Grandparents were wonderful people and I miss them. But, I have the unwavering hope that I will see them again when I get to heaven. No words of comfort can match that, no hugs can compete with it, and no tear can compare to the knowledge that I will see them again and I'll be able to spend all of eternity with them and my Lord and Saviour.

Do you have that hope? If you don't send me a comment, and I'll work with you so that you can know beyond a shadow of a doubt that when you died you will know exactly where you'll be.

Have a great week
Deb